So, I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m a bit of a sporadic writer. Sometimes things become so crazy around me that I lose track of everything that I enjoy doing and focus on what I “NEED” to do and man it really stresses me out. Writing is a great release, and I sort of use my blog as… well a journal I guess you could call it. Really I just enjoy ranting, or jotting down thoughts or even keeping updates about getting off my lazy butt, lol. Speaking of getting off my lazy butt, it’s so hard to get back into the groove of being motivated and fit after letting yourself (foolishly) take a break and not stay consistent *imagine a rolling eyes emoji here*.
At the beginning of this year I decided to take control of myself and start eating/living healthier, and man did it pay off! Between January and March I lost about 20 pounds (and if you scroll down my blog a bit you can refresh yourself on some of my struggles at that time, lol)!!! Now here I am, 6 months later, sitting at my desk thinking about the fact that I’ve gain 5 of those 20 pounds back. Sure, gaining 5 pounds in 6 months is like nothing; but for me it feels like a lot and I’ll be honest with ya, I’m pretty disappointed in myself. So to resolve my issue of feeling like a lazy lump I made a promise to myself that this week I’m going to get healthy, start up with my FitGirls group again for the next round, and get my booty back into gear. I’ve done pretty good so far though, I’ve been eating healthy and doing nightly workouts again and my muscles are even a little sore 😀 Getting into the mind set and rhythm again is pretty difficult but just like they say, as soon as you do it’s totally easy & you remember why it’s all worth it again!
Whoa, I just realized recently how long it’s been since I’ve written here or given you guys any kind of update! A lot of things have changed in my life this year, and I mean a lot. They have all been an incredibly positive changes though, thank goodness!
Anyways, I think the last thing I was updating you guys on was my fitness journey, and I’m very happy to announce that I HAVE KICKED ASS 😉 So, I started this trek on January 2nd, weighing 182 pounds (I’m so not proud of that) and as of today, April 17th, I weigh in at a whopping 164 pounds!!!!! That’s a whole 18 pounds people, and that means there’s only 9 pounds until I reach my goal weight! *mind blown* I didn’t think it was something I would ever accomplish, but once I got rid of everything in my life that was making me unhappy the weight has been literally melting off.
On top of losing all this weight (right before summer I might add), I’ve got a new place with one of my best friends and we’re having a blast together, I have so many trips planned for this year(!), I’ve got an amazing man who shows me my worth 100 times over every single day, and I started going to school again (I mean sometimes I regret that one but it’s positive too, right?)!
I think the biggest lesson I’ve learned in the short 4 months we’ve been in this year is that if you don’t like it, DROP IT. Believe me, I know its a million times easier said than done, and it’s scary as hell but the outcome is absolutely worth it. It’s like taking a 100lb weight off your shoulders and being able to breathe again. If you’re not happy, CHANGE IT… your happiness comes from within yourself, not anything or anyone else!
Today’s the day that I get really serious about this whole losing weight thing; and to be honest my concern isn’t so much about losing a bunch of weight (although wouldn’t it be nice?) as much as getting off my butt and feeling good about myself. I’ve always struggled with eating things I shouldn’t, feeling gross and down on myself all the time and wanting to get up and be active but not having the motivation to do it every day. It’s going to be different this time though, this time I’ve enlisted my boyfriend as my personal counselor; he’ll be helping make sure that I don’t eat any fast food / too many sweets each day and also in charge of making sure I get in at least 30 minutes of activity a day. Now I realize that there’s only so much he can do and the rest is on me which is why my plan is to go to the gym everyday for at least 30 minutes after work (I mean I work right down the street from it…) or workout at home with him and also to start eating healthier everyday… RESIST THE COOKIES SHELBY.
All I keep thinking about right now is the fact that I want to feel good about myself this summer and not embarrassed about the way that I look, and also the fact that I’m in my sisters wedding next spring and need to look AMAZING in my bridesmaids dress because there’s going to be sooooo many pictures and do I really want to look at myself and think “Ewe”?? I’ve tried this many times before and unfortunately I’ve never been able to stick with it because I lose my motivation. I’ve never cared about what people think of me so I think I’ve let myself go a little bit more than I ever wanted, not that I’m even close to overweight but it’s the fact that I feel so bad about myself lately. SO, today’s the day that I start getting really serious about this, they say it only take four weeks before you start noticing changes in yourself and eight before other people start noticing as well. We’ll see how long I can keep this up!
P.s. I’ll be giving weekly updates and would love to hear any neat weight loss tips & tricks you guys might have for me to try.